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Me.
(The one with the smexy hat)
Name - Jenny
Nicknames - Jennifer, Jenny, Jen, Jennenifer, Pockets, Arakhne, Akiwombo, Special K, Juniper, Damali, Illyria, Rin, Genma, Prop Mistress Eternal, Queen's Lady #2, Tragedian #3, Ela Delahay, Banquo, The Anti-Snarfle, Ponce de Leon! Conqueror of Florida!, Jean Grey, Fatty MacFatterson, Pain (Sarah's Minion (Annie is Panic))
Age - 18. That's right. I can buy pr0n, cigarettes, vote, and get legally executed! PIMP.
Country - USA. Woot. *waves flag*
Likes - Martial Arts. Yum.
Dislikes - I don't like dieing. It's a bit uncomfortable and it kinda tickles.
Watching - Advent Children... Why am I not that awesome?
Reading - Hanakimi
Playing - WoW, Dirge of Cerberus, FFVII
Listening - my fan creaking as it spins
Eating - frosted tree-shaped pretzels
Drinking - BAWLS!
Singing - Various RENT songs...
Mood - *gnaws on stapler* Guess.


Connections

Quizilla

I handcuffed || K, Yuki Eiri, Annie Bananie, Manuel, and Kenshin!!!

K-san is my soulmate!


Other Characters

Annie's Blog
Matt's Blog
Ziggy's Blog
Annie's Other Blog
The Mormon's Blog
Amy's Blog
Ross's Blog
Sarah's Blog
Sam's Blog
Sarah Short-One's Blog
Sarah/Rachel's Blog
Justin's Blog
Brittany's Blog
Anderson's Blog
Ziggy's Blog

The Red Noses Blog


Communications

Thoughts

"That rated a -3 on the manliness scale."
- Kiros
"trans-dimensional stupidity"
-Mr. White

"Life is like a group improv."
-Brittany

"If love were pain, I would beat you to an inch of your life." -Matt Patterson

"Sir, we have Sephiroth on line three..." - Electronic Gaming Monthly

"'Ring! Ring!' The house exploded." - Mr. Rozelle

"ground beef poptart." - Me.

"Canada counts as Europe." - Me.

"OurSpace: The Commnunist Solution to MySpace." - The offspring of Jannie.

"English doesn't borrow from other languages. English follows other languages down dark alleys, knocks them over and goes through their pockets for loose grammar." - Zee Oni-con Shirt

"I can only meditate clockwise." - Phillip

"*pulls out knife* Say it and you're losing 'em." - Brian

"I remember back when we didn't have the sun." - Matt Patterson

"Can I get 200 goldfish and a slingshot, please?" - Brewster

"32 bit n00b." - Brewster

Archives

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Monday, February 21, 2005

I Am So Awesome.



That's right! I'm awesome! Bow down and kiss my feet! I got an award for being Super-Wicked-Awesome! SO SUCK ON THAT!!!



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Jenny

Jenny :~: 2:57 PM |

Friday, February 18, 2005

A Thingy I Got Off Shu-chan's LJ



Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Jenny.
Birthplace ::: Lake Jackson...eww.
Age you act ::: ...answer may vary...
Current location ::: Lake Jackson. eww.
Eye color ::: brown all outlined in green.
Hair color ::: dark brown.
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: I'm left hand impaired. Right. Totally Right.
Zodiac sign? ::: er...Leo?
Height? ::: 5' 4" Woot.

[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: Anyone who knows me knows this: Polish. and Peruvian.
Your hair ::: it's all jaw-lengthy. Nothing special.
Your fears ::: being weak. being vulnerable. not nothing whats around me in the dark. the dark in general. Water that I can't see through, which goes back to the not know whats around me thing.
Your perfect room ::: That is way too long of an explaination and I'm feeling apathetic, so, no.
What you practically do in a day ::: Wake up, Curse the world, curse the homework I feel asleep before completling, skip breakfast, catch the bus, School School School, have extreme mood swings during lunch, School school school, play rehearsal, curl up in a corner, go home, ignore my homework, spend hours upon hours in E-Space, martial arts, write stuff, eat dinner, pass out.

[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: "Anywho." "Ok." "Awesome." "Freaking!" or some form of it
Phrases you overuse ::: 'WTF?' 'And they did.''Piss off.'
Your first thought when you wake up ::: "What the hell is that beeping?"
Your greatest accomplishment ::: wrote that one story
Something you want to do ::: Write a book

[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: Coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: McDonald's.
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: Off with both their heads.
Chocolate or vanilla ::: Chocolate. Pocky...mmm
Adidas or Nike ::: Either Or.
Black or white ::: mmmm TANGERINE!
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: dude...bills...
Burgers or hot dogs ::: depends on where you're getting them
Egypt or France ::: Egypt.
Rock or rap ::: Rock, seeing as rap makes me bleed from the ears.

[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Cuss ::: Pff, yeah.
Sing well ::: Ha, no.
Sing in the shower ::: Hell yes.
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: Oh yeah.
Believe in yourself ::: Why don't you ask my Lexapro...
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: Of course. What else would I do with my time?
Play an instrument ::: er...French Horn.
Want to go to college? ::: Yes 'um
Want to get married? ::: Still debating that.
Want to have children? ::: Still debating that too.
Think you're a health freak? ::: Ha. No. *points to pill of candy wrappers in the corner of her room*
Get along with your parents ::: Some times.
Get along with your siblings? ::: No.
Think you're popular ::: Ha. No.

[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: Yesh. Poland, actually.
Drank alchohol ::: I'm a Polish Catholic. Please.
Smoke ::: Nopers
Get high ::: Uh. No.
Done any drugs ::: Not if it was the last substance on either.
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: Hell yes.
Been on stage ::: er...*ish a theatre dork*
Gone skinny dipping ::: not that I remember.
Been dumped ::: actually...no.
Dyed your hair ::: nope. But this summer I'm totally making it blue to match Darby.
Stolen anything :::...I'm not going to answer that...

Where is Part 7?..

[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: I worked at the movie theatre and for some reason I was in a banana suit. Then everyone (Ross, Matt, Phillip, Annie, Manuel, Zach, Brittany, Ben, etc.) thought that if the all shot chocolate at me they would get free movie tickets. So they did. Then when I told them that wasn't the case, they started beating me up (I'm still in that banana suit. I'm in the banana suit throughout the whole dream) and Phillip is like "I'm sorry, Jenny. I love you, but I have to do this. *continues to beat up Jenny and spray her with chocolate*"
Last nightmare ::: Someone was trying to rape me and I couldn't fight back.
Car ride ::: does the bus count?
Last time you cried ::: er...3 hours ago...
Last movie seen ::: Troy
Last movie rented ::: Troy...Brad Pitt...battle-skirt...rawr!
Last book read ::: 'Speak'
Last word said ::: Okay.
Last curse word said ::: FUCK!
Last time you laugh ::: about 2 hours ago. Matt made a funny.
Last phone call ::: Ziggy called me from school about 10 minutes ago asking me where I was...I heard voices, one that was Phillip, and then something happened and they were talking (not to me though) and then Ben hung up.
Last CD played ::: Offspring
Last song you listened to ::: "Something to Believe In" - Offspring
Last annoyance ::: the bus driver.
Last Person to IM ::: Hiro-kun
Last weird encounter ::: I came home and there were old guys tearing my house apart...
Last person you hugged ::: Mom.
Last person you yelled at ::: Dad.
Last time you wore a skirt ::: Dress. When we went to see Anything Goes
Last time you've been evil ::: Heh. No.
Sarcastic? ::: What do you think, dumbass?
Last time you fought with your parents ::: Yesterday
Last time you wished upon a star ::: about a year ago
Played Truth or Dare ::: about 3 years ago
Spent quality time alone ::: I went for a walk on the beach a couple days ago

[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: Nope. I don't have AIM.
Do you feel lonely ::: Not really.
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: Nope.
How about egging someone's house ::: Hell Nope.
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: Apathy. (the next question makes that a "I don't like you.")
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: No...Hell. Fucking. No.
Yo Momma ::: Don't make me break your fingers.
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: Yup. And that's why Annie only has one arm...
What do you think of George Bush? ::: Idiot.
Any secret fetishes? ::: WTF?...go away.
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: ...o.O I'm gonna say no.
How many languages do you speak? ::: er...English, some German, some Polish and the Japanese that I've learned from watching subtitled anime.
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: Yeah. And my shoulders hurt too.
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) ::: Indifferent.





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Jenny

Jenny :~: 1:03 PM |

Blogger kicks Live Journal's ass. But I still like LJ.



I've decided that I'm going to go ahead and let anyone see my Live Journal. But you have to care enough to ask me for the url.

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Jenny

Jenny :~: 10:56 AM |

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

I feel like crawling into a dark hole and dieing.



I feel so horrible today. For starters: I'm sick. My head feels like it's imploding, my throat feels like I drank sulfuric acid, my chest feels like there's an elephant stepping on it and my back feels like someone stuck a knife in it and forgot to take it out. But oh no, that's not all kids. I feel so horrible today. I've just randomly been crying for no apparent reason because I just feel so bad. I'm crying right now actually. God, I'm so stupid... I can't find my cellphone. I think mom took it. She's been threatening to lately and I was half wake when she came into my room around noon. I heard Darby-keys jinggling. I thought she was on the other side of my room away from Darby, but when I got out of bed and checked in Darby for my phone, it wasn't there. I tried calling it because I thought maybe I took it out somewhere and forgot where I put it, but when I called it said the phone wasn't on. I know I didn't turn my phone off. I haven't been turning my phone off during the night for a few months now. I usually plug it in and let it charge. I know I didn't turn it off. So I don't know what happened to it. Maybe I lost it. Maybe it wasn't mom. I dunno.

I don't know how to feel about mom anymore. Sometimes she acts really nice to me and we're all buddy-buddy but then there's times when I get this feeling from her like she's mad at me for existing and I just start to feel so horrible. I know she doesn't hate me or anything, I mean, She's my mother and she loves me. But she seems so mad at me all the time. Damnit, I'm crying again. Like today, she seemed mad at me for being sick. Maybe she thought I was on the phone last night or something. Maybe that's why she took my phone. I was up late last night, but not because I was on the phone. I was finishing up 'Night'. Still, I got to sleep around 1 which is only a couple hours after I would have fallen asleep. I don't know.

I'm such a horrible person. I hate me. But does that mean I'm going to change? Heh. No. What is there to change? Everything I hate about me is part of me, part of my personality, part of my past. It's just who I am. If I change what's left of me then what else is there to hold on to? I'm not making any sense...but I don't really care. Trying to see the silver lining is impossible sometimes. "All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade..." Good things happen, but they never stay for long. Just when life seems like it could be a little happier, a little brighter, a little more bareable, it all comes crashing down again. It's a cycle. You get something, and it's taken away. I'm always waiting for the walls to cave in, thinking that maybe this time I'll be ready for it. Maybe if I'm ready for it, it won't hurt so much. Maybe if I shut everyone else out, then I won't bring them down with me. Just like every time before. Everything is doomed to fail. What was that quote from Donnie Darko? Everyone dies alone? Something like that...

'Shimmer' by Fuel.

She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside isn't on the label
She says she's ashamed
Can she take me for awhile
Can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
Or maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend

We're here and now, will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen on white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her
She says that love is for fools that fall behind,
And I'm somewhere between
Never really know
A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend

We're here and now, will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away....
It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away....

It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away....
It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away....
It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away....

It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away....

Guess I'll let it go....


Throught out all of my life, I've been being accussed of things. Sometimes the accusations were right, but as much as they were right, they were wrong. But I took the blame anyways. After a while, it just seemed like it didn't matter because they wouldn't believe me anyways. No one ever beleives me. One time when I was in P.E. in 3rd grade, I was sitting on the one of the bottum steps of the stairs in the gym and there was some kind of game going on, I don't know, but I had been stretching my legs out and I didn't notice this boy named Keith who was running by me and I pulled my legs in just before he ran into them, but he kind of stumbled a little anyways. Anyways, the P.E. coach got really pissed at me because she thought that I was trying to trip him. I thought of telling her that I didn't see him coming and I was just stretching my legs, but come on, do you think she would have believed me? "Oh, I was just stretching." Would you believe that? Especially coming from a kid who got into trouble so much? Yeah, I got into tons of trouble when I was in elementary school. So I didn't say anything. I didn't see the point in it. So I got in trouble. I had to write up a "Look mommy, I got in trouble today." sheet and everything. If I tell myself something long enough, eventually it becomes true. I've made myself sick by telling myself I was sick before. My biggest accomplishment of all: I made myself numb by telling myself that I didn't care. I have no words to explain the things I feel sometimes. I randomly start crying and I don't really know why. It pisses me off too. Someone will say some, just some random irrelevant thing, and I'll start to cry. People ask me what's wrong and I have nothing to tell them. People ask me why I do something or why I act a certain way, and then they get mad when I don't tell them. I don't have an answer. Most of the things I do and the decisions I make are impulsive, based on what my intuition tells me I ought to do, because that's all I can feel.

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Jenny

Jenny :~: 3:37 PM |

Sunday, February 13, 2005

I Hate Indifference.



This is where I stand on 'indifference'. I hate it. It should be banned from the human spectrum of emotions. Everyone should have and state their firm, solid and clear opinion on any subject when asked. None of this "Well...I dunno. *shrug* Whatever." crap! Nuh uh! Jenny ain't takin' that no more!...

*ish hypocritical*

the end.

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Jenny.

Jenny :~: 7:38 PM |

Friday, February 11, 2005

SURPRESS THE RESISTANCE!



I just heard a teacher say this to her class in the library:

"You're work ethic is non-existant today...Quit the resistance and get your notes done."

Yes! Surpress The Resistance! Go and get your riot gear! Some one fetch the tear gas, these kids are goin' nuts! This will not be tolerated! *inhales deeply* AH! I smell Revolution in the air! Pull out The Guillotine; It's gonna be a bloody bloody Valentine's Kids! AHAHAHAHAHA! *goes all Salem-Witch-Hunt crazy (speaking of which, I sacraficed myself so that the other members of my farm could live! And two of them ending up dead anyways!)* Smother the resistance! Hang all that speak of fear! *goes all MaKbeth (yesh, with a K) crazy* Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose! AHAHAHAHA! *lets the attack dogs out* Kill, my pretties! BUwahaha! All creatures on this earth are destined to die alone! *goes Donnie Darko crazy* Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?! Take it off! It's A DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION!!! AHAHAHA!

And In honor of the joyous occasion:

"Get Your Riot Gear" by Five Iron Frenzy:

Something stirring in the air, a victory?
A time-bomb ticking to explode,
Something passive, something not.
Billy clubs out, call the S.W.A.T.
Rabid dogs without a leash,
is this how you keep the peace?
You want riots? Wear your riot gear.
You want violence?
Then shoot some tear gas in the air.

It is written on your badge,
'To serve and protect',
it seemed you only served yourselves,
protecting your own neck.
Controlling with fear, menacing and threatening.
You want my respect?
You better start respecting me.

Go and get your riotgear,
swing your girlie all around,
we'll be dancing on the cinders,
as the town is burning down.
Swing her around, burn it all down.

Something smelled of power tripping,
crowd control was rank.
Tear gas everyone downtown,
what you did really stank.
Legislation, never made you judge and jury.
Marshal law now,
beat the kids down with no worries.



Ok, I totally went nuts...heh heh heh *gets all shifty eyed**runs away*

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Jenny

Jenny :~: 11:08 AM |

Flooblebox. Why do you hate me?



Yeah, flooblebox effin' hates me! The chatterbox has died and has failed to raise again within the next 3 days! NOT. COOL. ...pisses me off...speaking of which, I need money so I can buy a Valentines dealy for Pip-kins. Donations, anyone? I owe my mom over $100. FAAAAAK! Ugh.

I've started posting on Live Journal. If you know my username then you're allowed to look. If you don't then you're just S.O.L. and if you DO know my username, don't tell anyone else or I'll get really pissed and delete the account because I'm an ass like that. *sticks out tongue*

la li la li HOOOO! I've taken the cool nickname that Ziggy gave Phillip and made it all cutesy: Pip-kins. ^-^ Woot! Speaking of Ziggy, Le Phrase of the Day!:

"Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch: 2. The Man: 0"
-Ziggy.

I love you for that Ben. I get all my cool phrases by ripping off one of yours. *cough* Basterdly foe!*cough*

I ought to be doing Chemistry work that I didn't do last night. But I think I'm just going to kidnap Zach's homework. Wee! Free internet! I love our library *cuddles it*. NEEEEE! Ok, I'm done here.

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Jenny

Jenny :~: 10:50 AM |

All The Same, Take Me Away, We're Dead To The World



Booyah. Nightwish lyrics. Check it out kids:

"Dead To The World" by Nightwish:

All the same take me away
We're dead to the world

The child gave thought to the poet's world
Gave comfort to the Fallen
(Heartfelt, lovelorn)

Remaining, yet still uninvited
Those words scented my soul
(Lonely soul, Ocean soul)

It's not the monsters under your bed
It is the Man next door
That makes you fear, makes you cry,
Makes you cry for the child
All the wars are fought among those lonely men
Unarmed, unscarred

I don't want to die a scarless man
A lonely soul
(Tell me now what to do)

I studied silence to learn the music
I joined the sinful to regain innocence

Heaven queen, cover me
In all that blue
Little boy, such precious joy
Is dead to the world

Heaven queen, carry me
Away from all pain
All the same take me away
We're dead to the world

Dead, silent, constant
Yet always changing
- My favorite view of this world

As he died, he will return to die in me again
Weaving the cloth, giving birth to the Century Child
Who gave his life not for the world but for me
Innocence reborn once more

And here's my inspiring piccie o' the day!:



"I'm Charley's Aunt! From Brazil! WHERE THE NUTS COME FROM!"



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Jenny

Jenny :~: 10:45 AM |