Sunday, February 29, 2004
i went to el contest-o in columbia yesterday. Annie and i got to finals with our duet and i got to semis with my solo then got shafted and didnt get to preform it. the tournament was ok. I wasn't really in a great mood to begin with. a bit below average. Then with the whole spazing out because of having to rush to finals and the getting shafted on my solo, i just started getting more and more depressed. the solo thing didnt really bother me that much. i knew i wasnt going to advance anyways, but it was just enough to get me on a track down. I got more headaches. After we went and saw group improv, which was grand, by the way, Matt, Callan, Zach, Ross, Bellami and I all went to the gas station and bought stuff. Matt bought me some tylenol and, as tradition goes, we bought lighters (a different color than last tournament) and Matt rigged his up so it had a 6 inch flame. Well, when we came back from that i sat around with everyone for a little bit. Nobody acknowledged my existence so i figured if i left they wouldn't follow. And so i did. And they didn't. I walk around alot. I found random swinging chair and sat in that for a long while...i was really sad then. really sad...then a while later, i came back because it was getting a bit too cold, nobody noticed me when i returned either. and so, since i had no pillow, i used my blanket as a pillow and my jacket as a blanket and laid down under the table. Jenny had a nice round of sulking there too. Nobody but Phillip noticed i was there. He put Reese's by my head. Not even Annie or Owen (who showed up with the most perfect timing), who were off and about looking for me. so when i finally rolled out from under the table Annie came up and said "You know Owen here, right?" and im like...oh...wow...And from then on my day improved darastically, except for the trip home. I listened to Moulin Rouge and it made me cry. Then i got to go to ihop with my mormon and i got mashed potatoes and then i spent the rest of the night over at Phillip's home with Annie and Owen and Mr. White, and, obviously, Phillip... then i came home and mom was kinda mad that i was home so late. But dad was alot more reasonable than she was. He realized that they didnt give me a specific time to be home so...bleh. My time now is 10:30 inless they say other wise. arg. all well.
Friday, February 27, 2004
Well. I kinda wanna smash my head in. Again. That feeling's getting really old....really old....i'm tired of feeling like crap every freakin' day. maybe i should have a mental break down so i can go back to the happy psychiatrist lady and she can give me more happy pills! Eeee! And then i can be all perky and la la la!...mm...i'll have to get non-paxil though...paxil was a bitch...yeah, it made you all hyper and stuff...but did it make you any happier? No. In fact, it made jenny more off her rocker than she already was! Yay! urg...i have contest tomorrow...i will be needing an intro...and i will be needing to work on my solo....a lot...a whole freaking lot...ok, screw talking to jake, im gonna finish posting then go work my happy little ass off...urg...jenny wants to be hit by a mack truck...lalala...*makes a musical out of it, takes it to broadway, nobody comes to see it*
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
'Ello, 'Ello! Tis I! Jenny! You're lovely WebMistress!...or not so much...Fine! Don't throw a parade!...jerks...i kick you out of my blog! All of you!...wait...come back...please!...i love you!!!!... =^-^= MEOW! Yesh, how i loves my emoticons! I'm suprisingly upbeat, considering this day is like, DOOMDOOMDOOM and jenny's mentallly breaking down all over the place...yup, peices of jenny's brains flying all over the place. terrible mess. Someone should really clean that up before the carpet gets stained...Anyways! Annie and I massacred the cast today at rehearsals. Twas great fun! We went around biting everyone and there was death and blood and violence and sex and drugs and war and...oh wait...sorry...getting carried away...anyways! Yesh. And the Mormon was being little stripper boy! It was lovely! We were all so like WEEE and it was great! Ah, i love plays...so much fun...I GOT A ROPE! Ryan was making a noose with a rope and Mr. White was like, isnt that one of our props? and i was like...uh...no...and he's like, all well, it is now! So Ross and Ben have something to tie up the bad guys with now! Yay! Mmmm....i love being prop master person...hee. I'm the MASTER of something! YAY! Ok, Jenny's done now. I'm gonna go have another mental breakdown...someone get a mop please...
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
mm...i posted on The OTHER Blog, go look there. There's a link to it here. Don't have time to post here. laters. Much love. Many hugs.
Sunday, February 22, 2004
Mmmm, my favorite song is on the radio in the other room. i can barely hear it....*sigh* wow, i got really depressed really fast...i was just irritated before. now i'm just depressed. again. and i hurt. my shoulders do...god...i just want to sleep forever...or cry. i dont know why i want to cry. normally i hate it. it doesnt solve anything, it just makes me look really stupid...all well...i feel kind of sick...more so mentally then actually oh-im-going-to-hurl sick. maybe i'll groan a lot and go home earlier tomorrow. if you pretend you're really sick and you dont have a fever the nurse will send you home anyways...i like the nurse. she's nice to me. arg...i told jake i'd call him tonight...crap...i dont want to...he's all mopey because i was all sad and crap and i wouldnt tell him what was wrong or why i wanted to be alone today...and it's just going to make him sadder if i dont call...god i just dont care, he can be as sad as he wants, i dont want to talk right now. i'm gonna go mess with my other blog. bye.
Mmmm, my favorite song is on the radio in the other room. i can barely hear it....*sigh* wow, i got really depressed really fast...i was just irritated before. now i'm just depressed. again. and i hurt. my shoulders do...god...i just want to sleep forever...or cry. i dont know why i want to cry. normally i hate it. it doesnt solve anything, it just makes me look really stupid...all well...i feel kind of sick...more so mentally then actually oh-im-going-to-hurl sick. maybe i'll groan a lot and go home earlier tomorrow. if you pretend you're really sick and you dont have fever the nurse will send you home anyways...i like the nurse. she's nice to me. arg...i told jake i'd call him tonight...crap...i dont want to...he's all mopey because i was all sad and crap and i wouldnt tell him what was wrong or why i wanted to be alone today...and it's just going to make him sadder if i dont call...god i just dont care, he can be as sad as he wants, i dont want to talk right now. i'm gonna go mess with my other blog. bye.
I made another blog. It's on the links down there. It's The OTHER Blog. go to it. it's beautiful...my beautiful beautiful child.....i mean....uh...blog....yeah....
oh. it's Sunday. Yay. I'm looking for a new blog skin. Not because i don't like this one anymore. I love this one. but just because i'm bored out of my mind. Annie went to el store-o. Owen is in Bay City. I could have Jake come over, but i'd rather not. It makes me sad to have him around these days. I think i'm going to make another blog. just out of randomness. because i can. And i'll put the moulin rouge skin on it. yeah. i'm making another blog. it shall be called, The Jenny Is Bored Out Of Her Freakin' Mind Blog...not really...i'm done now. byes
Saturday, February 21, 2004
I changed my Likes and Singing thing on my descriptiony thing over there ish...jenny has had a really bad week but a really awesome weekend...so far...because Sunday will probably suck...damn Sabbath...holy day, my bum...ok, enough of that. Yes, this weekend was all awesome and stuff. I spent it with my mormon. He made pizza. We saw a play. He has a battle cry...that wasn't during the play...fencing...eee...my new favorite thing...maybe even beats german...maybe...MAYBE...Annie, El Owen-o and I took our shoes off and had an orge in his car. There was a lot about pants today for some reason...i need new pants...monday is going to be horrible...crap...i hate school...i hate papercuts...i hate cold weather unless it involves snow...i hate emotions in general. I hate all of it. Lol,
Jenny: (jumping up and down, holding Owen) Can i keep him?! Can I keep him?!
Sorry, that just struck me and i had to share. Well, I'm really glad i stop bitching long enough to have this weekend because it was really great. I had fun. But there are still things i have to worry about, which sucks so much...but i did have the awesome weekend. and it was good. and i was happy. and i am happy. but by tomorrow i probably wont be. Und uberhauplt nicht by Montag morgen. Gotta go. I'm gonna get chinese, yum.............................. eee.................... fencing...yum...*drool*................ yes, chinese, must go. laters!
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
argargargargargargarg. I complain too much. I should shut up.
Saturday, February 14, 2004
Why is my computer so gay? I dont know. Stupid thing...today was not worth living through...much as most of my days are like recently. I hate waking up in the morning knowing that the day will not be worth living through, but that i'll have to do it anyways...arg...someone shoot me now...or hit me with a car...or give me a disease, a really bad one...well, i need....well...i'm not going to be able to sleep, i'll tell you that right now...so i'm...gonna.....go....bye.
Well, my chatterbox is being gay and it wont let me post...and i have to go argue or at least try to have an organized thought process which is actually a very hard thing for me to do...i don't think well...but i need a freakin' ride! I told mom that i'd need a ride! And what does she do? Leaves! Christ, these people...so silly. And over course my dad is like, why dont you ride your bike? 'CAUSE I'LL FREEZE MY DAMN ASS OFF!!! THAT'S WHY!!! Arg, I should've taken Owen's offer to keep the jacket...thats a very warm jacket...Annie truck broke down...which was suprisingly amusing...heehee, im so evil...Workday was fun. *sigh* if only i didnt have other things to worry about. I would still like to either kill everyone or hibernate. eliminate...ignore....eliminate...ignore...eliminate, ignore, eliminateignore....hmph. gotta go. bye
Thursday, February 12, 2004
I'm not dead. Just so you all know....i'd post more but, i need showering...byes.
Sunday, February 08, 2004
arg...my post went bye bye...all well...there shall be no postage today, you'll all just have to talk to me. Cruel and unusual, yes i know. I'm sorry. Blame my mother. By the by, Annie and Owen, I won't be around tomorrow morning...and probably many mornings after that because i have to go to tutorials for multimedia...*adds more people to the 300 wing bloodbath insued by Mrs. Trahan...that bitch...* well, i need showering. good night. have a lovely morning without me. byes.
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Hmm...i think i might kill this person...
Damnit, my computer refuses to connect to quizilla.
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
um...theres really nothing for me to say here...sorry
Monday, February 02, 2004
I'm bored. Really bored. Owen's doing yard work. Annie's working on her solo thing. Jake's spent the night at Frank's house and is still over there...gah. And i dont have any cake. I really want a nice big chocolate cake with lots of chocolatey icing! mmm...yummy...i've got a box thing of cake mix that has a picture of just that on the front of it...but all i can do is stare at it and drool...for i have no oven to make it with...i was considering microwaving it...but i dont want to waste this perfectly good and rare oppurtunity to make cake on using my very limited microwaving powers...bah...Owen said that I could go over there and make it except that his mother wasnt home. Bah. Maybe I'll tell annie that I'm invading her house for her oven...no...i'm going to be going over to jake's later today when he gets back from frank's so no time to make my cake...*sigh* but it looks so good! If i had a license i'd just go out and buy a cake, but alas, i do not. I can't even find the handbook thing so that i can take the test thingy. OHOHOH!!! OWEN'S GOT A PORTABLE OVEN!!!...but...no way to get it here...arg! Fine! I'm going to go drool somemore!
Sunday, February 01, 2004
Wow. I found the site for Fight Club...it's so awesome! Lol! I love it! It's perfect! On the side, they have these Tyler's Words of Wisdom things, i love them. here they are:
Tyler's Words of Wisdom
Don't let everyday life get to you. I say take a commonly used expression and act it out. Today's phrase: "Abuse The Copy Machine." Drop what you're doing and have at it. Send us pictures and we'll post them.
Today a question. Which is more noble? Allowing a pair of pandas to live off of the land knowing that they will never procreate and their species will go extinct or "rescuing" the pandas and forcing copulation for a steady wave of camera toting tourists?
Contrary to what your mothers and teachers tell you, you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else. We are all a part of the same compost heap.
Oxygen gets you high. Next time you're on a plane headed for disaster, take short natural breaths, not the giant panicked breaths you would normally take before a fiery death and see how much more horrific airline tragedy can be.
In order to create soap, the yardstick for civilization, you must first render fat. And the best fat for making soap- because the salt balance is just right- comes from the human bodies.
Did you know that every year there are more people killed by mules than in airline accidents?
Ever find yourself wondering what people mean when they say "It's all relative?" Consider this: On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
Today's words of wisdom come from the friendly skies. Do you know the industry slang for "Flight Attendant?""..."Air Mattress."
You have to know, not fear, that someday you are going to die. Until you know that and embrace that, you are useless.
Pretty happy with where you are in life? Do the contents of your wallet define you? Are you as cool as those dancers on television because you wear the same khakis? If so, keep it up; it seems everything is working out great for you.
What will you wish you'd done before you died? Paint a self-portrait? Build a house? Don't wait until it's too late. Do it now. Otherwise your last thought of this planet will be regret.
The next time you feel like complaining to your chaplain or your lover about how miserable your life is, be thankful you are not cursed with the three terrible Karmas- Beauty, Riches and Fame.
They also have a help button, and this is what's in the window if you pop it up:
Fight Club "Help" Button
Don't worry, we're confused too. Confused as to why you're confused. Are you having trouble translating the text? That's English. Are you confused because you expected some morbid, dark interface? Great, head to any of the hundred or so demonic, sadistic or pornographic sites you have bookmarked and imagine yourself in Fight Club.
We apologize for any confusion you may be experiencing. But are we to blame? Double click on that HELP button tattooed to your mother's forehead. She'll tell you that your confusion stems from a fatherless childhood, where you were raised by television to believe that one day you’ll be a millionaire or movie god or rock star. What you really should be worried about is that it took this long for you to admit your plight.
Everyone on our "Answer Team" is currently occupied, but we value your inquiry. While you wait for our crack support staff to e-mail you, maybe you'd like to visit something a little more pedestrian. The following is a list of sites that are simple, colorful and most importantly, not confusing: www.walking-made-easy.com, www.coloringwithcolors.com, www.duh.com.
Hee, i also found quotes from the movie, but i wont post all those. Ross! You need to get you're butt to that website! It's got fight club-y goodness all over the place! And it's got extra stuff, like little extra clip things with Tyler or uh...also Tyler...talking about stuff. I love it. It makes me so happy. the site is http://www.foxmovies.com/fightclub/ so go there Ross! Ok, well. I'm going now. Bye.