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Me.
(The one with the smexy hat)
Name - Jenny
Nicknames - Jennifer, Jenny, Jen, Jennenifer, Pockets, Arakhne, Akiwombo, Special K, Juniper, Damali, Illyria, Rin, Genma, Prop Mistress Eternal, Queen's Lady #2, Tragedian #3, Ela Delahay, Banquo, The Anti-Snarfle, Ponce de Leon! Conqueror of Florida!, Jean Grey, Fatty MacFatterson, Pain (Sarah's Minion (Annie is Panic))
Age - 18. That's right. I can buy pr0n, cigarettes, vote, and get legally executed! PIMP.
Country - USA. Woot. *waves flag*
Likes - Martial Arts. Yum.
Dislikes - I don't like dieing. It's a bit uncomfortable and it kinda tickles.
Watching - Advent Children... Why am I not that awesome?
Reading - Hanakimi
Playing - WoW, Dirge of Cerberus, FFVII
Listening - my fan creaking as it spins
Eating - frosted tree-shaped pretzels
Drinking - BAWLS!
Singing - Various RENT songs...
Mood - *gnaws on stapler* Guess.


Connections

Quizilla

I handcuffed || K, Yuki Eiri, Annie Bananie, Manuel, and Kenshin!!!

K-san is my soulmate!


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Annie's Blog
Matt's Blog
Ziggy's Blog
Annie's Other Blog
The Mormon's Blog
Amy's Blog
Ross's Blog
Sarah's Blog
Sam's Blog
Sarah Short-One's Blog
Sarah/Rachel's Blog
Justin's Blog
Brittany's Blog
Anderson's Blog
Ziggy's Blog

The Red Noses Blog


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Thoughts

"That rated a -3 on the manliness scale."
- Kiros
"trans-dimensional stupidity"
-Mr. White

"Life is like a group improv."
-Brittany

"If love were pain, I would beat you to an inch of your life." -Matt Patterson

"Sir, we have Sephiroth on line three..." - Electronic Gaming Monthly

"'Ring! Ring!' The house exploded." - Mr. Rozelle

"ground beef poptart." - Me.

"Canada counts as Europe." - Me.

"OurSpace: The Commnunist Solution to MySpace." - The offspring of Jannie.

"English doesn't borrow from other languages. English follows other languages down dark alleys, knocks them over and goes through their pockets for loose grammar." - Zee Oni-con Shirt

"I can only meditate clockwise." - Phillip

"*pulls out knife* Say it and you're losing 'em." - Brian

"I remember back when we didn't have the sun." - Matt Patterson

"Can I get 200 goldfish and a slingshot, please?" - Brewster

"32 bit n00b." - Brewster

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Saturday, January 31, 2004

Ok, now lets see who else Jenny can get pissed off at her! Step right up! I'm sure i can find something to do to make you annoyed or just plain pissed at me! arg...nevermind. I feel like shit. bye.

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Jenny :~: 9:18 PM |

arg. Once more! With feeling! AAAARRRRRGGGGGG!!!!!!!

Jenny :~: 7:08 PM |

More quizzes.

apathy
Apathy, well I can say your lucky, in some ways.
You see Apathy is no emotion, basically you
don't care. But that does not make you a bad
person. Some of my friends are apathetic and I
love them, but it wouldn't hurt to care a
little more. Trust me life hurts, most people
who are apathetic do it cause they were hurt.
But don't worry, life is pain, its also
pleasure. Good luck. (please vote)


What Emotion Dominates you?
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You are...a  L o n e r...
You are a LONER. Tho u like being with other
people, it's nice to have some time for
yourself too. And sometimes people are
annoying...so it's better to be alone and do
whatever you like. So yeah...go away!


Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!)
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Fight Club!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Freaking awesome! I got Fight Club! SCORE!!!

My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!


Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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godd
You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."


Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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vamp
You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."


Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and as many say
Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."


What type of eyes do you have?
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 Congradulations! you're a Complete Psycho!
'Complete Psycho' PLEASE VOTE!!!


What Type of Lunatic are You?
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Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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Water
You are guided by water. You are generally calm and
peaceful, but you can be very destructive
without even realizing it.(Rate my test)


What force is your soul?
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blackcloak
Your Cloak is Black. The Darkness has consumed
you.






What Color is your Vampire Cloak?
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Jenny :~: 9:54 AM |

I feel all ach-y and sore today...bleh. I still dont think i'm sick. I had a weird dream...Annie and I were buying color changing carpet for Owen...and sending mail in shoes...It was strange...Then the creepy Kitchen guys who dont speak english came and started making noise and woke me up. Jerks. I can hear them drilling something. Don't know what...don't particularly care what...they are drilling my kitchen...my lovely lovely dis-assembled kitchen...barbarians!...Anyways. My head feels heavy...bleh. Anyways again. Arg...nobody's online...i wanna talk!!! or type! Or whatever! Oh! There we go! My tummy's hurting again! Well, lovely. At least I'm not deathly ill like dear Annie was...or is...she doesnt seem to be that bad now...OH! YAY! Mommy's going up to Buckey's to get krispy kream donuts!!! Yay!!! Oh, that's....YAY! *does dance of the happy ach-y people* Wee! Donuts! KRISPY KREAM DONUTS!!! Wee!...ok, i'm done now. There's still nobody online...cruse you people! Get your lazy bums to your computers and entertain me!!!..hmph...i think my brain might explode...it kinda feels that way...lol, THAT would be entertaining! Funny to watch. wow...i just found the stupidest e-card ever....and sent it to annie and owen...teehee! arg...i just had to get up and walk...it didnt feel good....my back is really sore...bah humbug! Anyways, OH! DONUTS ARE HERE! IT'S GONNA HURT TO WALK DOWN THE STAIRS BUT I'LL DO IT ANYWAYS!!! ANYTHING FOR DONUTS!!!

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Friday, January 30, 2004

Arg. That's all I have to say. Arg. And that's it's cold. I don't like cold. When I grow up, I'm not living anywhere cold...well...maybe...i like snow...i'll migrate...or something to that affect. I'm still liking my burrow idea though...the whole hibernating thing. yeah. that sounds like fun. I used to actually try to hibernate. I'd get all covered in blankets and my brother would throw pillows and stuff on top of me and i'd try to hibernate in my happy little jenny burrow...but eventually, i'd get hungry...or run out of air...im really tired...i dont want to go to bed though...not yet at least...I'm on Phillip Watch. *dawns camoflauge suit. hides in shurbery, pulls out binoculars* Must inform him of Annie's wishing to speakith with the boy. Well, I'm going to surf the internet for stupid things. Bye.

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Jenny :~: 10:36 PM |

wow...my stomache hurts...a lot...and i'm not hungry or anything. I just ate a poptart, and normally i dont even need that to hold me over. I was walking in the hall with jake this morning and I got this sudden really sharp pain in my stomach...maybe not sudden, but it built up to a sharp pain then went back down in about 15 seconds. That happens to me from time to time. It's just a weird thing my body likes to do to me, like the daily headaches and then the sudden sharp head ache pain then faint things...those only happened twice though...anyways, normally, when my stomach does that, it's just that. No more pain afterwards...this is strange...

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hi


shit. i had a post typed up. then the computer screwed up. now it's gone.

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Damnit! This stupid computer keeps erasing all the stuff i save so i have to keep going back and redoing everything and I'm already so incredibly behind...damnit...I'm going to be failing a couple classes on my progess report because there's stuff i haven't turned in. I've been a bit preoccupied. That's no excuse though...damnit...that's the title of this post. DAMNIT! Damn everything. If I don't get a part, which i know i wont, in the play, and i dont get to do tech either, i'm going to stick around anways. I just dont want to go home...yesterday, i got home and i spent half an hour, locked in a dark room with a pepsi, going over everything. There's really nothing to go over. There's no way out of this. I've been perfectly framed. I may as well give up and except defeat. But no, of course I'm too stubborn to do that...whatever. I shouldnt be complaining so much. Be grateful for what I do have...ow...my lip's all split and bloody. It stings. I'm hungry too. I brought a poptart this morning. I was going to give it to jake, since he's got no food at his house and all, but he said i should keep it. Maybe I'll eat it later...i'm too tired to eat. Lol. That's a first. I'm too tired to do much of anything. Lol, except type. Of course. I could type and type and type and type and type untill my happy little hands fall off...i hate my hands. I hate most all of my body parts...I think the only think that i do like are my eyes...and my hair. My hair is fun. I can hide in it easily. I'd still change it though. Anyways. Damn...i didnt get coffee today...that means i'll probably be falling asleep in english or geometry or something...oh wait...i have to be all happy for Jake. Yeah. If I'm sad it makes him sad...great. Damnit...the stupid teacher turned the ac on...it's cold enough in here already. Fine. I'm going.

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Damnit! This stupid computer keeps erasing all the stuff i save so i have to keep going back and redoing everything and I'm already so incredibly behind...damnit...I'm going to be failing a couple classes on my progess report because there's stuff i haven't turned in. I've been a bit preoccupied. That's no excuse though...damnit...that's the title of this post. DAMNIT! Damn everything. If I don't get a part, which i know i wont, in the play, and i dont get to do tech either, i'm going to stick around anways. I just dont want to go home...yesterday, i got home and i spent half an hour, locked in a dark room with a pepsi, going over everything. There's really nothing to go over. There's no way out of this. I've been perfectly framed. I may as well give up and except defeat. But no, of course I'm too stubborn to do that...whatever. I shouldnt be complaining so much. Be grateful for what I do have...ow...my lip's all split and bloody. It stings. I'm hungry too. I brought a poptart this morning. I was going to give it to jake, since he's got no food at his house and all, but he said i should keep it. Maybe I'll eat it later...i'm too tired to eat. Lol. That's a first. I'm too tired to do much of anything. Lol, except type. Of course. I could type and type and type and type and type untill my happy little hands fall off...i hate my hands. I hate most all of my body parts...I think the only think that i do like are my eyes...and my hair. My hair is fun. I can hide in it easily. I'd still change it though. Anyways. Damn...i didnt get coffee today...that means i'll probably be falling asleep in english or geometry or something...oh wait...i have to be all happy for Jake. Yeah. If I'm sad it makes him sad...great. Damnit...the stupid teacher turned the ac on...it's cold enough in here already. Fine. I'm going.

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Wednesday, January 28, 2004

ok! I CAN go home with Annie! Jake was all *grumble*grumble* because he thought Owen would be coming along. I told him that Owen had to be at rehearsals and he got happier...if it ends up that Owen doesnt go to rehearsals..well...then jake doesnt get to know...but he probably will so...yeah. I'm in the 9th grade computer lab now. And by the by, the posts for today start farther down. I've decided that I'm going to change my name to Get Thee To A Wifery on MSN, in honor of Dylan's comment at auditions. Hee! Annie's not so sick now, which is very good. We don't want a dead Annie on our hands, no sirree, that's not good at all. Not the least bit. Ahahaha! I found Piano Man lyrics! SCORE! I love that song and i've had it stuck in my head for the last...well, since Yahoo Review...hmm...now all i need is someone to sing it and some one to play piano...


It's nine o'clock on a Saturday
Regular crowd shuffles in
There's an old man sitting next to me
Makin' love to his tonic and gin

He says, "Son, can you play me a memory
I'm not really sure how it goes
But it's sad and it's sweet and I knew it complete
When I wore a younger mans clothes"

La la la, de de da
La la, de de da da dum

Chorus:
Sing us a song, you're the piano man
Sing us a song tonight
Well, we're all in the mood for a melody
And you've got us feelin' alright

Now John at the bar is a friend of mine
He gets me my drinks for free
And he's quick with a joke or he'll light up your smoke
But there's someplace that he'd rather be
He says, "Bill, I believe this is killing me."
As the smile ran away from his face
"Well I'm sure that I could be a movie star
If I could get out of this place"

Oh, la la la, de de da
La la, de de da da dum

Now Paul is a real estate novelist
Who never had time for a wife
And he's talkin' with Davy, who's still in the navy
And probably will be for life

And the waitress is practicing politics
As the businessmen slowly get stoned
Yes, they're sharing a drink they call loneliness
But it's better than drinkin' alone

Chorus
sing us a song you're the piano man
sing us a song tonight well we're all in the mood
for a melody and you got us feeling alright

It's a pretty good crowd for a Saturday
And the manager gives me a smile
'Cause he knows that it's me they've been comin' to see
To forget about life for a while
And the piano, it sounds like a carnival
And the microphone smells like a beer
And they sit at the bar and put bread in my jar
And say, "Man, what are you doin' here?"

Oh, la la la, de de da
La la, de de da da dum

Chorus:
sing us a song you're the piano man sing us a song tonight
well we're all in the mood for a melody and you got us
feeling alright

Just putting it there so that when i get home i can copy paste and print. Oh, in that case...

A long long time ago
I can still remember
How that music used to make me smile
And I knew if I had my chance
That I could make those people dance
And maybe they'd be happy for a while
But February made me shiver
  with every paper I'd deliver
Bad news on the doorstep
I couldn't take one more step
I can't remember if I cried
When I read about his widowed bride
But something touched me deep inside
The day the music died
So...

*Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
Them good ole boys were drinking whiskey and rye
Singing this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die

Did you write the book of love
And do you have faith in God above
If the Bible tells you so?
Now do you believe in rock and roll?
Can music save your mortal soul?
And can you teach me how to dance real slow?

Well, I know that you're in love with him
'cause I saw you dancing in the gym
You both kicked off your shoes
Man, I dig those rhythm and blues
I was a lonely teenage broncin' buck
With a pink carnation and a pickup truck
But I knew I was out of luck
The day the music died
I started singing(*)

Now, for ten years we've been on our own
And moss grows fat on a rolling stone
But that's not how it used to be
When the jester sang for the king and queen
In a coat he borrowed from James Dean
And a voice that came from you and me
Oh and while the king was looking down
The jester stole his thorny crown
The courtroom was adjourned
No verdict was returned
And while Lenin read a book on Marx
The quartet practiced in the park
And we sang dirges in the dark
The day the music died
We were singing(*)

Helter skelter in a summer swelter
The birds flew off with a fallout shelter
Eight miles high and falling fast
Landed foul on the grass
The players tried for a forward pass
With the jester on the sidelines in a cast
Now the half-time air was sweet perfume
While sergeants played a marching tune
We all got up to dance
Oh, but we never got the chance
'Cause the players tried to take the field
The marching band refused to yield
Do you recall what was revealed
The day the music died?
We started singing(*)

Oh, and there we were all in one place
A generation lost in space
With no time left to start again
So come on Jack be nimble, Jack be quick
Jack Flash sat on a candlestick
'Cause fire is the devil's only friend
And as I watched him on the stage
My hands were clenched in fists of rage
No angel born in hell
Could break that Satan's spell
And as the flames climbed high into the night
To light the sacrificial rite
I saw Satan laughing with delight
The day the music died
He was singing(*)

I met a girl who sang the blues
And I asked her for some happy news
But she just smiled and turned away
I went down to the sacred store
Where I'd heard the music years before
But the man there said the music wouldn't play
And in the streets the children screamed
The lovers cried, and the poets dreamed
But not a word was spoken
The church bells all were broken
And the three men I admire most
 the Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost
They caught the last train for the coast
The day the music died
And they were singing(*)

But wait! There's more! Can't forget Queen now can we?

Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see-
I'm just a poor boy,I need no sympathy-
Because I'm easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesn't really matter to me,
To me

Mama,just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger,now he's dead,
Mama,life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away-
Mama ooo,
Didn't mean to make you cry-
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow-
Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters-

Too late,my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine-
Body's aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody-I've got to go-
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth-
Mama ooo- (any way the wind blows)
I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all-

I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche,scaramouche will you do the Fandango-
Thunderbolt and lightning-very very frightening me-
Galileo,Galileo,
Galileo Galileo
Galileo figaro-Magnifico-
But I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me-
He's just a poor boy from a poor family-
Spare him his life from this monstrosity-
Easy come easy go-,will you let me go-
Bismillah! No-,we will not let you go-let him go-
Bismillah! We will not let you go-let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go let me go
No,no,no,no,no,no,no-
Mama mia,mama mia,mama mia let me go-
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me,for me,for me-

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye-
So you think you can love me and leave me to die-
Oh baby-Can't do this to me baby-
Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here-

Nothing really matters,
Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters-,nothing really matters to me,

Any way the wind blows....


Ok, that's all. Ah, yes, lyric-y goodness! Well, Dont forget there's a couple more posts under this one, so read on! Laters!

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wow...i am the last-minute homework GOD!I just finished my whole essay in multimedia and i still have a ton of time to spare. Now all i need to do is...German, and that isn't due untill tomorrow, and Theatre, and that isn't due untill tomorrow...well, it was due yesterday...but i can't turn it in untill tomorrow, and i'll just share the answers i have with Kelsi in exchange for answers she has for geometry. Yahoo! Awesome! Wow, my stomache hurts! But i havent had breakfast today...and i dont think i had much dinner last night, so that's to be expected....ah, i feel the daily headache coming on. I'll be visiting nursey today. Maybe i'll take a nap. But only if it's geometry. Because Geometry is gay and stupid and i hate it. >.< I don't know what that face is supposed to mean, but it's really cute and i like it. So there. >.< Bleh! Just try and stop me! Ahahaha!...anyways...I have a new excuse to not be at home now! There's creepy kitchen guys there and mom doesnt want me to be home alone with them afterschool so i get to be elsewhere. Wee! Cuz mommy doesn't want me being raped and all. She told me to go home with Annie afterschool if i could. Then she'd pick me up after work and then Jake could come over and we'd do our religious watchings of Buffy and Angel. Apprantly, Owen is very much so in my mom's good graces, because she said "Well, if you can't go home with Annie, see if you can sneak Owen on the bus and bring him over here. I can give him a ride to his house or whatever when i get home so that he's not here when Jake is." Hmm...that suprised me...strange...but Owen's probably got to go to rehearsals after school and Annie might not want me over, her being all sick and all, so i suppose i'll just wander aimlessly around the school untill mom gets off work...which is about...say...5:30...ish...Mom would let me just have Jake over but Dad was probably all "No daughter and boyfriend alone at house! Bad! No!" Because Dad's crazy like that....hmm...my parents are strange though...Jake has been allowed to spend the night before, like if we were all getting up really early the next morning to go somewhere, or if it was New Year's, or if there was just badness at his house and he didnt want to be there. Sure, It's been "you sleep chained to the couch downstairs with my father looking over you with a shotgun, and i'll go sleep in my room with a large lock on the door." but still. Strange...my mom is allowing me to get rides from Annie now. But more so from Owen though. Probably just because Owen didnt murder our mailbox. Well, I must flee. Laters.

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Tuesday, January 27, 2004

I have a ton of homework. Gotta write an english essay...something about "Being The Best I Can Be"...riiiiight...yeah...kinda sounds like they want me to join the army....anyways...I haven't even thought about what i'm gonna write. All well, I'll just bullshit my way through it. No problem. I also have to do a tech theatre assignment. I'm supposed to make a prop list and a list of...something else...i dont know...and i dont know how to set it up either...so far, i've just listed the page numbers...not sure where to go from there...i guess i'll just...uh...list stuff...maybe i'll beat up Owen and make him do it for me! Heh Heh. ^-^No, just kidding. I'm a big girl, i can do my homework all by myself. Besides, prop list is easy...but then...i dont know how to set it up...and i dont know what the other thing we were supposed to list is...arg. Anyways, yeah, and i've got acting type theatre homework. I have to list the objectives and such. Bleh. I was doing that in class today...but then i decided to fall asleep on my script...so i didnt finish it...hmph. I've been going to the nurse practically ever day for tylenol, but that's not unusual or anything, i always get headaches. My head doesnt like me. But the nurse has been asking me more and more if i'm sure I'm ok. Supposedly, i'm starting to look sick. She said i'm pale...but i've always been kinda pale. I think she's crazy, because i seriously feel just fine. Only the headaches, and those arent out of the norm or anything. Anyways, today i had to reassure her about 5 times that i was feeling fine in order to go back to class. Bleh. I should have just said i need to lay down for a while and took a nap. No love lost in skipping IPC. Bah. Science. I dont like it...well, i like it. It's interesting, but sometimes it just gets really annoying...Today was the last day for auditions...it's not likely at all that i'll get a part...which means i wont get to have a life...*sigh* One thing I love about plays, not only are they freaking awesome and so much fun to put together, but they also give me an excuse to not be at home, or anywhere else for that matter. Don't get me wrong, i dont not-like my home. It's nice and all, but it's just kind of depressing...like walking through a hospital...but not so much. I just like being elsewhere. So yeah, No play. No freakin' awesomeness. No not-being-at-home. All well. There are others things to be all welled, but, bleh. Annie's all sick and stuff. I wanted to go see her afterschool or something, but, you know, lack of freedom. Meaning, lack of proper licensing. Poor Annifer. Throwing up all over the place...Not fun. I hope she gets better soon. School just isnt the same without the dear girl...Well, I'm off to write about the best that i can be. Laters.

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Oh, and i also have German too...lots of German...German coming out of my ears...gah.

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I have a ton of homework. Gotta write an english essay...something about "Being The Best I Can Be"...riiiiight...yeah...kinda sounds like they want me to join the army....anyways...I haven't even thought about what i'm gonna write. All well, I'll just bullshit my way through it. No problem. I also have to do a tech theatre assignment. I'm supposed to make a prop list and a list of...something else...i dont know...and i dont know how to set it up either...so far, i've just listed the page numbers...not sure where to go from there...i guess i'll just...uh...list stuff...maybe i'll beat up Owen and make him do it for me! Heh Heh. ^-^No, just kidding. I'm a big girl, i can do my homework all by myself. Besides, prop list is easy...but then...i dont know how to set it up...and i dont know what the other thing we were supposed to list is...arg. Anyways, yeah, and i've got acting type theatre homework. I have to list the objectives and such. Bleh. I was doing that in class today...but then i decided to fall asleep on my script...so i didnt finish it...hmph. I've been going to the nurse practically ever day for tylenol, but that's not unusual or anything, i always get headaches. My head doesnt like me. But the nurse has been asking me more and more if i'm sure I'm ok. Supposedly, i'm starting to look sick. She said i'm pale...but i've always been kinda pale. I think she's crazy, because i seriously feel just fine. It's only the headaches, and those arent out of the norm or anything. Anyways, today i had to reassure her about 5 times that i was feeling fine in order to go back to class. Bleh. I should have just said i need to lay down for a while and took a nap. No love lost in skipping IPC. Bah. Science. I dont like it...well, i like it. It's interesting, but sometimes it just gets really annoying...Today was the last day for auditions...it's not likely at all that i'll get a part...which means i wont get to have a life...*sigh* One thing I love about plays, not only are they freaking awesome and so much fun to put together, but they also give me an excuse to not be at home, or anywhere else for that matter. Don't get me wrong, i dont not-like my home. It's nice and all, but it's just kind of depressing...like walking through a hospital...but not so much. I just like being elsewhere. So yeah, No play. No freakin' awesomeness. No not-being-at-home. All well. There are others things to be all welled, but, bleh. Annie's all sick and stuff. I wanted to go see her afterschool or something, but, you know, lack of freedom. Meaning, lack of proper licensing. Poor Annifer. Throwing up all over the place...Not fun. I hope she gets better soon. School just isnt the same without the dear girl...Well, I'm off to write about the best that i can be. Laters.

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Monday, January 26, 2004

Have I mentioned that i hate multimedia? I have all this crap that i have to make up...all because of damn Mrs. Trahan...bitch...well, it's not like i've got anything to do in the morning anymore...so i'll just go in for tutorials and get the teacher to explain all this crap to me. I dont see why i need to use flash...i'm not going to spend the rest of my life making pretty little pictures...unless i want to be a graphic person...nah...i dont know what i want to be...i have absolutely no clue...lol, i have no dreams. Poor me...lol, Mommy! Mommy! I wanna be a vampire slayer when i grow up! That would be a freakin' awesome job...*sigh* all well. i've got too much time on my hands now. I need to find something to do. I never did get into that kung fu stuff...i dunno, i might see about that...i'd like to do jujitsu, or like Owen told me, the ninjitsu or whatever that his brothers did...that sounds like lots of fun...bleh...i dont know...all i really want to do is sleep...maybe i'll hibernate...yeah, dig myself a little burrow, get my teddy bear and stuff myself full of food, then just sleep through the rest of the school year. Maybe a bit longer...maybe some one will come hibernate with me. Keep me and teddy company. Lol, there we go, Ross! Instead of our run away trip to Europe, we'll hibernate! lol. Ok, that's what i want to do now. I'll be a professional hibernater. Human-squirrel...wait...do squirrels hibernate?...well, i'll be a professional-some-kind-of-cute-furry-animal. Penguins should hibernate. Sheep too. Ok, well, I'm going to go hibernate on my keyboard now. Laters.

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Sunday, January 25, 2004

i think i'll bomb the world. The whole freakin' world. Me included. Sounds like fun. Thats a nice way to go out. Knowing you took everyone with you. Well, It is if you're me...Nah. If i could, i wouldnt. There's some people i like living. Some. Mmm...Evanescene...i havent posted any of that on my blog yet. Must do homage to the gods of awesome music-ness. Here Annie, One of your favorites.

"My Immortal"
by Evanescene

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

Ah yes, the great Evanescene. *bows down. kisses ground they walk on* Well, my carpet needs vaccuming. Laters.

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Hmm....today sucks. Tomorrow's gonna suck too. And the day after that. And the day after that...and so on and so forth. My room needs a-cleanin'. Laters.

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Friday, January 23, 2004

Bleh....sorry, another crazy post. Jenny does that from time to time. Ignoring it works best. Anyways. I took a quiz on quizilla when i was over at Annies. It was what kind of wings do you have or something. I got this:

You have wings of STEEL. No one's really
sure why, but at this point in your life you've
shut off emotion to the point of extreme
apathy. You are cold and indifferent much of
the time...or perhaps you're just a good
pretender. Next to impossible to get close to,
even those who do never see the real you. It's
entirely possible that YOU don't even know the
real you. You have a certain fascination or
attraction to destruction on a massive scale -
disasters, perhaps even death or the concept of
the Apocalypse. Because you hold so much
inside, one day you're simply going to snap.
Then the mask will fall away, and your true
wings will be revealed. Until then you will
deal with whatever comes your way in icy bitter
silence and acceptance. On the positive side,
you are fearless and immeasurably strong - not
much can crack through your defenses. You
intrigue people, who can't help but wonder why
you're the way you are. A loner and one who
spends much of their time brooding and
contemplating life and death - you are a time
bomb waiting to explode and create some
destruction of your own

Annie says it got me right on....

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Thursday, January 22, 2004

The posts for today starts 3 posts down, so go read those first....NOW!

I feel like typing a string of curse words...hmm...i won't. But i really want to. I was singing "Craaaaaap!!!" earlier. hmm...perhaps i should bash my head on the desk...nah. I already have a head ache and mother will be quite cross with me if i get brains all over the new computer. Today at lunch, i was in a really bad mood. I'd gone from incredibly depressed to bitter at the world and everything in it. And I guess if you wanted to blame someone for this whole deal, you could blame Jake. That is if you weren't busy blaming me. But I'm already mad enough at myself, so we go on to the next victim. Jake didnt mean to make me like this, but it happened anyways. And the fact that I'm hurt so much from this, when, from where he's standing, it doesnt seem like i should be. In fact it seems kind of wrong. But anyways, i was really irritable, especially towards Jake, and i was talking to him in a meaner voice than i meant to. I wasnt saying anything mean. I was just talking (well, i didnt actually talk to him that much, but the few sentences i said were) in an angry tone. Then outside, when he asked me to stop getting all pissed at him, i almost-yelled at him a bit and he started asking questions that i didnt want to answer so i did the stupidest thing i could and stormed off in a mad fit to leave him there being all sulky. I wanted to go somewhere alone to sulk, so i didnt go see annie. I think that kinda made her mad...so i wandered through the cafeteria, had a few billion drinks of water, then went and sat on the steps. Reed came by, i talked to him for a bit. I like Reed. He's cool. Then he went away and I started reading my Much Ado script, seeing as i didnt feel like thinking about things or anything, but then Owen came up. Well, I can't be mean to Owen. I like him too much for that. So i went back to being sulky instead of the bitterness. Which is probably a very good thing. Eventually Annie and Lindsey came inside. I laughed some. Felt kind of better. Then I saw Jake again outside of 3rd period and it's like...oh yeah...i'm not happy! This whole thing is fucked! *sulk*sulk*sulk* And the note i got from Jake didnt help at all... What is it that I'm supposed to be doing? I mean, i try everything i can to keep everyone happy, but i fail everytime. So i just give up on the whole thing, and still, even when i'm yelling at people to just leave me alone, i'll do whatever you want, just please, stop, it's still screwed...well, yeah. giving up doesnt ever help. pff, i should at least know that. But there's nothing else i can do. People dont seem to get that. They're like "You're not trying hard enough!" and blah blah blah. That is getting real freaking annoying. I swear, the next person who tells me i'm not trying is going to get hit with something large and heavy...and preferably metal. Fuck you if you think i'm not trying. All i've been doing is trying. Does anyone ever notice? No. Of course not. Because you know me, I'm all La La La, skip around in the daisies...yeah...right...Of course I try. I always try. But it never seems to be enough for anyone. Hey people, I'm sorry if i can't be what you want me to be or live up to the image you have created all pretty in your mind. I'm sorry that i care. I'm sorry that i get hurt. I'm sorry that I'm weak. Lol, and then guess what happens when i come home...jake calls and i hear about what happened over at his house. I hate his mom. She should burn...oh yeah...it could be worse...a lot worse...so what the hell am i complaining about? I should be happy. Grateful for what i have. But am i? No. So now i feel worse than i already do. I give up. Let the world go to hell with everyone in it. Let everyone cry and cry and cry. Let everyone be hurt by everything. Damn them all...but then, uh ohs, i start feeling guilty...AGAIN. God, doesnt anyone get that i'm sick of all this. I dont want to hear about it, let alone talk about it. Not so much anyone. Jake. I just want to be left alone. He got what he wanted now i wish he'd fuck off about it. But no. We have to talk about it. Discuss it further. Poor salt in the wound...it's never enough. Everything's not "gonna be ok". Not for a long long while. I can't tell this to anyone either. Either they'll get mad at me or start insisting that i take a different action or...nevermind. I give up. Throw me to the lions because i dont care anymore. Ok. I'm tired of this crap. This is one of my favorite songs. I love it so freaking much! It brings me joy! Annie and i were quoting it earlier on MSN:

Flagpole Sitter
by Harvey Danger


I had visions, I was in them
I was looking into the mirror
To see a little bit clearer
Rottenness and evil in me


I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so hot cause I'm in hell

Been around the world and found
That only stupid people are breeding
The cretins cloning and feeding
And I don't even own a tv

Put me in the hospital for nerves
And then they had to commit me
You told them all I was crazy
They cut off my legs now i'm an amputee, G*d damn you

I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so hot cause I'm in hell
I'm not sick but I'm not well
And it's a sin to live so well

I wanna publish zines
And rage against machines
I wanna pierce my tongue
It doesn't hurt, it feels fine
The trivial sublime
I'd like to turn off time
And kill my mind
You kill my mind

Paranoia! Paranoia!
Everybody's coming to get me
Just say you never met me
I'm going underground with the moles
Hear the voices in my head
I swear to God it sounds like they're snoring
But if you're bored then you're boring
The agony and the irony, they're killing me

I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so hot cause I'm in hell
I'm not sick but I'm not well
And it's a sin to live so well


I in love with my Buffy display pics. A lot of the stuff on the pics is from Matchbox 20 songs. Like Bent. I love Bent. Great song, that. My favorite pic is the one where Buffy's all beat up and bruised and bloody and stuff and it says "They follow me thinking I can save them"

"Bent"
by Matchbox 20

If I fall along the way
pick me up and dust me off.
and if I get too tired to make it
be my breath so I can walk

If I need some other love
give me more than I can stand
and when my smile gets old and faded
wait around I'll smile again


shouldn't be so complicated
just hold me and then
just hold me again

can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
get put back together
you're breaking me in
and this is how we will end
with you and me bent

If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
could you paint me better off
could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot

I started out clean but I'm jaded
just phoning it in
just breaking the skin

start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in

shouldn't be so complicated
just touch me and then
just touch me again


The bolded line is in one of the pics. The italics are just lines i lines i really like. There isn't much from that song, but there is from Push. Push is an abusive song, i dont so much like the lyrics, over all, but there's small part i like. And i like the sound of the song. I like how they use it on the display pics.

"Push"

She said I don’t know if I’ve ever been good enough
I’m a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
and I don’t know if I’ve ever been really loved
by a hand that’s touched me, well I feel like something’s gonna give
and I’m a little bit angry, well


This ain’t over, no not here, not while I still need you around
you don’t owe me, we might change
yeah we just might feel good.


(chorus)
I wanna push you around, I will, I will
I wanna push you down, I will, I will
I wanna take you for granted,
I wanna take you for granted I will


She said I don’t know why you ever would lie to me
like I’m a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt
ya
and I don’t know why you couldn’t just stay with me
you couldn’t stand to be near me
when my face don’t seem to want to shine
cuz it’s a little bit dirty well



Don’t just stand there, say nice things to me
I’ve been cheated I’ve been wronged,
and you you don’t know me, I can’t change
I won’t do anything at all..


(chorus)


Oh but don’t bowl me over
just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so crazy, crazy
don’t rush this baby, don’t rush this baby..


(chorus)


Thats that. The End. I'm off.

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Wow...I feel really sick...like, more so than i used to...i'm still working on the custom animation. Kitty's about to start devouring the car. My stomach hurts like hell. Partially from my lack of breakfast...but i never eat breakfast...so the fact that it's just now decided to complain doesnt really fit...plus my head hurts a lot. Maybe I caught something from Annie because I'm feeling kinda faint to...no...check...really faint...It's hard to type, hard to work, hard to tell one thing from another. Everything is hurting my eyes. The sun isn't even shining, but still, everytime i go outside, my eyes start hurting. Even these lights in the classroom are hurting my eyes. I'm gonna go back to work now.

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There's another post under this.


I'm in my brand spankin' new multimedia class. I hate it here. This teacher actually expects me to come in in the morning to work on stuff. Screw that. God, everything sucks now. Not the schedule change. Other stuff. And so, karma has come around to bite me in the ass. Except...i dont really remember what i did in the first place...i'm sure i did something. Didn't help Amanda when she needed it. Made Jake give up Racheal. Something. Well, someone's got it out for me. God, Budda, Allah. Maybe i mocked religion one too many times and got somebody seriously pissed off at me....to tell you the truth, i'd rather be at home, singeing my eyelashes off than be here at school. Or any where else for that matter. Ross and I's plan of running off to Europe is sounding really appealing, but i've still got stuff to lose...so no. I have to sit here and wait untill i've got nothing. Though the things i love are rapidly being taken away from me....oh my fuc-...freaking god...this computer doesnt have word...what kind of computer doesnt have freaking word on it?...fine. I'm going to go attempt to finish my assignments without it. Bye.

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Wednesday, January 21, 2004

Owen, look at the post under all the german, that ones about stuff that Jenny doesnt do, now look at the one under that. That one is the one talking about how i was abandoned-ed by...YOU!

Annie tried to make me a non-man today by putting me in all her clothes. Didn't work. So tomorrow i shall be wearing more girly, girl clothes that belong to Annie. Hee, on Friday Owen's going to wear her clothes...i think i'll need to bring a camera...but thats depending on what shirt he wears...hmm...We watched Much Ado About Nothing and i loved it! Eeee! Fun Fun Fun! well, I'm done here. Byes.

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Tuesday, January 20, 2004

Jenny ist ein albern duckie! Sterben Sie duckie stirbt!

Annie said this to me. What it means is...

Jenny is a ridiculous duckie! Die duckie die!

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Muwhahaha! Keines von Ihnen täuscht wissen, was ich sage, weil es deutsch ist! Ahahaha! Verlierer! Yeah stellte ich aus dar, wie man auf Deutsch, OH- bekanntgibt, das yeah freaking ist! Gut lassen Sie uns sehen hier..., was, auf Deutsch, was zu sagen, auf Deutsch zu sagen... ich hier sitzen könnte und die ganze Sie zu beleidigen... keine..., das... grausam sein würde, das die Frage darstellt, warum die Hölle nicht i sind, das sie tut? Brunnen..., das ich nicht... kenne, also werde ich jetzt getan.

Let's see ya read that ya little FREAKS!!!

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Meow...meow meow...i just discovered everything i can do on msn plus...im in love...i found the mother load of buffy display pictures and i think i'm about to dance...or not...another thing. I dont dance. Ok, it's time to play the List-All-The-Things-Jenny-Doesn't-Do Game! ok, first of all, Jenny doesn't sing. At all. *glares at owen* NO SINGING! With Sunny Side as the exception, seeing as you dont have to actually sing Sunny Side...second of all, Jenny does not go swimming in water that she can't see through...wether there's fish in it or not...especially if it's freshwater...third of all, Jenny does not partcipate in any kind of sports....especially track! TRACK IS THE DEVIL!!!...fourth of all, Jenny does not dance. It's just. not. done. fifth of all, Jenny does not watch soap operas. I'll watch infomercials at 3 in the morning but soap operas are completely out of the question...unless they're in german...sixth of all, Jenny does not go within 10 feet of any rooster. Hen's are ok. A thing David Boreanaz (the guy who plays Angel) and I share. Fear of Roosters. Or at least severe disliking of them. seventh of all...ok. I'm done now. The End. Byes!

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I had little sleep last night. I also had a bunch of coffee this morning. So all through out the day, I've been in a very odd mood. I really would like to take a nap, but i also have the incredible urge to run through the streets doing cartwheels...strange...A2 was like hell on ice though...except without the ice...or the hell....hmm...that doesnt work to well....anyways, so I'm in this new multimedia class after my schedule change (when i was put into tech theatre) and it's freaking awesome because I've got Ross in there and Sarah in there and I can still go see Jake before the bell rings because it's in B wing and Owen can stay sometimes because of his lack of a class to be in (curse-ed senior *shakes fist*) and it's all awesome and stuff, but then i start getting counted absent in some other class that i'm not assigned to, so OF COURSE the only option is to change classes yet again, not to the class i'm being counted absent in, no, but to a class that has nothing to do with the whole thing, a class in the freaking vocational building! Damn Mrs. Trahan...that woman has only brought me trouble...in 7th grade i had to go to ISS because of her...and now she thinks i'm a terrorist...cursed woman...*trails off about Mrs. Trahan drowning in her own vomit* Anyways, so i walk my happy little butt down to the guidance office to get my brand spankin' new schedule and then i grumble while i walk back to my old class and tell the teacher that I'm not in that class anymore, then grumble a bit more while i walk towards the 300 wing, planning on taking the door that is the closest to that god forsaken building so that i wont freeze my bum off on the way over there, taking the longest way i can, and when i get to the door, i take my sweet time to put on my jackets and adjust them all nicely and fold up my new schedule as small as i can and gather my things up, then i look at my watch and it's 11:10 and I'm thinking, screw that, i'm not going over there for the half hour left of the period so i can sit and be cranky. So I sit down outside the orchestra hall, figuring maybe Owen's in there. I sent a couple people in to call him out, but apparently, he was no where to be found....sneaky little monkey child...so for the next 20 minutes (after my random wandering of the hall and talking to Stacy) i lay down on the ground and repeatedly bang my head on the ground, hoping that my skull will eventually crack open and my brains/blood will go spilling all over the floor, and then Mrs. Trahan will happen by and slip on my brains/blood, trip, fall, crack her own head open on the floor, and bleed all over the place, then along comes Mr. Jones, that up tight prick, and uh ohs, slip, fall, die, bleed. (this is when i start wishing death on people that I'm not actually mad at, but decided to kill off anyways)(such as dear Owen! He's just so fun to kill!) then, along comes Owen, SLIP! FALL! DIE! BLEED! And soon we've got a dead Mrs. Cormier, Jake, Annie, Phillip, Mrs. Collier (she was old and mean! She had it coming!) Ross, Sarah, both Zachs, My brother in Indianapolis, Mr. ChoirTeacherGuy (simply because it's choir), Mr.Davies (ok, he really had it coming!) and I've got this never ending cycle of Slip! Fall! Die! Bleed! worked out and soon i've got the mental picture of all these dead bodies lining the 300 wing in my happy little never ending blood bath. So take that, little miss-I'm-gonna-screw-up-jenny-schedule-just-because-i'm-mean-and-stupid! It's all because of you!...*grumble*grumble* all well...i suppose i've got to have one sucky class....except, wait! I have 3! English, Geometry, History, and now multimedia! 4! Gah! hmm....good thing they're not all on the same day...i've decided that i'm not going to read a tale of 2 cities. I'm 7 chapters behind. so i'm just going to go get some really detailed chapter summaries and hope i pass...gah...school is evil. I declare it so. my mental blood bath actually got me pretty happy though...hmm...that's sad...anyways, it's either that or all that coffee...maybe both...I'm really hyper and strangely happy...ok...i'm done now. Tah Tah!

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Sunday, January 18, 2004

Well, here i am. Back in blogging action. Lets see...where to begin...I had to baby sit some kids. They were ok. We watch some game shows. Shop 'till you drop. Weakest Link. Wheel of Fortune...weird shows for little kids to like...then we watched Spy Kids 2...it took a lot of effort not to mock the movie...A LOT of effort. Annie called sometime and invited me to go over to Owen's with her...even if i hadnt been babysitting, i probably still wouldn't have been able to go...I'd be too worried that Jake would get sad or something...I've decided that it's just so much easier to not care about people...but alas, i do. Though i'm too self-centered to get any credit for it...lol, see, i want credit for it, see how self-centered that comment is! I honestly dont know why i have the great friends that i do...all well. I'm not complaining. I took a quiz on how much i'm worth. I am worth exactly: $1,530,530.00...and i cheated on it too. The average woman is worth $1,659,243.00. Lol. I mock things too much...all well. Fight Club is an freaking awesome movie! I love it! It's my new favorite! Pirates of the Carribean be damned! I love this one!...well....maybe not be damned....just move down a notch....for now...but i love this movie. I got so involved in it too. When it was over, I was left in this weird surreal mood...it was fun...but not so much for jake though...i was being kinda mean...we were better later though. We talked about what heaven would be for us, if there is such a thing. It's a nice thought...Bleh. *rapid subject change* Annie and I were originally planning to go to Belle dance together since both of our boyfriends dont like dances. We only wanted to take pictures with me in a dress and annie in a tux. We were going to see if we could get Owen's tux. But then we decided that Belle dance wasnt worth $40 so now we've decided to just to get the money and go eat. And we'll both wear tuxes. I called Owen's...by the by, Owen, may i borrow your tux *cutest face ever* please please please???...ok, im done now...byes

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Saturday, January 17, 2004

Hee Hee, I switched the 'Playing' thing on my description...silly boy...tee hee!

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Friday, January 16, 2004

I have to go watch some kids for money so i will not be in El E-space-o today. Toodles Noodles!...hmm...if anyone dies call my cell phone...k, byes!

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Thursday, January 15, 2004

I've changed stuff on my description thingy...meow...ok im done...

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Wednesday, January 14, 2004

FINALLY! An epsiode dedicated purely to Harmony. That was a good one. My mom is going crazy about the kitchen. She's all excited because she's finally getting to get it all pretty-fied. The people are supposed to come in in 2 weeks to rip it all apart. So we'll be eating microwavable things on paper plates for a while. Sounds like heaven to me *gets all dreamy eyed*. I love my microwave. How would i survive without it? Thats all I'm gonna have when i grow up...I'm gonna be a crazy old lady living in an apartment with 9 cats, a microwave, and all the Buffy/Angel DVDs for my viewing pleasure...yup. thats all....byes.

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Tuesday, January 13, 2004

Owen dearest! I need to speakith with thee. So....uh...ith....beith onlineith soonith or i shall beatith thee...or something to that effect...yes, well...moving on! I have babies to sit on! Yay! I have 2 babysitting jobs, one on Friday. one on Tuesday. It's gonna be awesome possum! *does happy-I'm-gonna-get-some-money dance* And they aren't actually babies, they're 5 or 6. So I won't hate them. I hate babies. Hate them. They're ugly. And smelly. And disgusting. And they're noise. Inconsiderate. Rude. They look like giant raisons. They're bald too. They just sit there and stare at you and drool everywhere. They look like mindless little midget freaks. Disgusting...but dont get me wrong, i want to have a baby sometime...and then I'll probably think that it's beautiful and all the other babies are just freaks. Mine's the only normal one...moving on. Hmm....Dum dee dum-OH! New Angel episode! I'm freakin' out man! YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!! I'm sorry guys, you're my buddies and all, but if any of you try to call be between 8 and 9 tomorrow night while I'm religiously watching my Angel, I will either not answer, or pick up the phone, immediatly followed by hanging it up. When you stand between my Buffy/Angel and me, screw you! Lol, Love ya, but when it comes to Angel, friends be damned, I'm getting my Joss Whedon fix! Hee, I'm only half serious about that, but as a warning, if I miss any part of a new epsiode, even if i am taping it, you'll be getting a firm beating. No, not really....though i have rejected Annie a couple times because I was watching Buffy...hmm...make that a few times...a hand full of times....a bunch of times....Anyways! Buffy game....gotta get the Buffy game...hmm...ok...thats all...I'm done...Byes!

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Jenny :~: 5:39 PM |

Sunday, January 11, 2004

Lol! wow...I'm in love with this song. God i love being Catholic!

"Forgiven"
by Alanis Morrisette

You know how us Catholic girls can be
We make up for so much time a little too late
I never forgot it, confusing as it was
No fun with no guilt feelings
The sinners, the saviors, the loverless priests
I'll see you next Sunday

We all had our reasons to be there
We all had a thing or two to learn
We all needed something to cling to
So we did

I sang Alleluia in the choir
I confessed my darkest deeds to an envious man
My brothers they never went blind for what they did
But I may as well have
In the name of the Father, the Skeptic and the Son
I had one more stupid question

We all had our reasons to be there
We all had a thing or two to learn
We all needed something to cling to
So we did

What I learned I rejected but I believe again
I will suffer the consequence of this inquisition
If I jump in this fountain, will I be forgiven
We all had our reasons to be there
We all had a thing or two to learn
We all needed something to cling to
So we did

We all had delusions in our head
We all had our minds made up for us
We had to believe in something
So we did

Jenny :~: 12:54 PM |

So now here i am. Waiting for the flames to come eat my skin away. Too bad I couldn't have a gun in my desk, though. Much less painful than being burned alive. Quicker too...Actually, since we're on the subject of too bad, a parachute would have been nice too. Or an office by the fire escape. Or an office on one of the first floors...all well, no use crying over spilled milk...hmm...bad phrase to use...forget that, I'll be doing all the crying i want. And then some. Thanks Owen, for what you put in the comments thing. That was beautiful. But i dont think there's anything that you guys can do for me in this...I've gone over the situation again and again, and this really is it. I would love it if i could just jump and fly, but unfortunately, the world doesn't turn that way. My choices are, die one way, or die the other. There is no inbetween, God, i wish there was, i would love that more than anything, but it's impossible. I can wish and hope and pray to whoever is willing to listen but that won't change it. I just have to decide what i can live with, and what i can't. That last part, it's not part of my whole metaphore thing. That is actually what i had to do. Decide what would hurt me the worst. Thanks for all your support and caring but...it's in vain. I'm sorry.

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Saturday, January 10, 2004

Jake and I have been fighting a lot. Practically every day now. But the situation is like, every option i have is a dead end. It's a lot like being stuck in a burning skyscraper. You can either stand around and wait to be burned alive, or you can go jump out the window and fall to your nice bloody painful death. For the first time in my life, i have absolutely no clue what to do. Normally I've got some idea of what i want and maybe how to get it but...not in this case. All hope I had before, and believe me, i used to have tons of hope, you wouldn't think so, but i had hope coming out of my ears. Like singing the "Just keep swimming" song off of Nemo all day long. But that's gone. And I'm just so utterly confused by all of it. So here I am. Standing in my little office building (i've decided it's an office building, the sky scraper that is.) trying to decide which way I'd rather die. Be burned alive, or have all the bones in my body shattered, perhaps even have a few limbs seperated. I've tried to think of any other option. I've been trying for the longest time. I was convinced that there had to be a way. Like in video games, there's always a way to beat it. Always. But, uh oh, life's not a video game. So there it is. Which ever way i go, things will just be worse. See, I was right all along. My little motto of the day i had a few weeks ago, remember? "Screw it all, It's just going to go up in flames so why even try" yeah, i guess i was right. Lol, I'm damned. Isn't that pleasant. Well, it's time for some quality sulking. Byes.

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Jenny :~: 8:22 PM |

meow.

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Jenny :~: 7:35 PM |

I've changed my site's title back to the original "Irony & Microwaves" because I've realized that that is all my life is...kinda sad. Really pathetic. Anyways. Post Post Post. Look at me and my posting fun...Sorry. Bored. A lot has been on my mind. Poor mind. I've been confused about a lot of things. I dont like it. Not fun. But I did have fun last night. Annie and I took Owen out to eat for his birthday. More fun than a barrel of monkeys. Monkies...monkeies...hmm...anyways. I don't like school either. It's been put on my List of Things I Don't Like. But I don't hate it yet. Perhaps some day though. Then shall it move up to my List of Things I Hate. Maybe I'll post that on here one day. Just for kicks and giggles. But not now though. Well....I'm off. Toodles.

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Wednesday, January 07, 2004

arg...*moans as if she's in serious pain*...jesus christ on a cracker...some one kill me...im bored out of my mind....GAH!...annie's off watching her vampire movie...jake's watching a movie with his mom...owen isnt online...jake's watching a movie with his mom...i was talking to Ross but he had to go...oh i think my brain is leaking out my ears...please some, cut my head off and beat me with it...i think i stole that from someone...oh, owen. he did that in an email. cut off his own head and beat himself with it. yup. pretty funny stuff, made me laugh.....................100 bottles of beer on the wall......100 bottles of beer....take one down, break it open on my head....99 bottles of beer on the wall....i was playing my own personal Buffy personification game earlier....jake was 60% Angel and 40% Spike....Annie was a whole mixture of a bunch of people....Cordelia, Buffy, Tara, Dawn, Random hobo taken off the street and given lots of hair dye....the closet person i could think of to Owen was Oz...I dont know, I've only known Owen for about a month so i don't know if i know him well enough to match him up with someone...He seriously reminds me of Oz though... I'm sticking with mostly Oz, maybe a bit of Xander...Sam has ALWAYS reminded me of Xander, every since i first saw him. Sam is Xander. um...hmm...Ross....who would Ross be...there isn't really a Buffy person for Ross...ok, at this point, when I've run out of ways to match people up, i get bored of the game and quit. the end. And now i have to flee. Toodles...some one call me....PLEASE! IF YOU HAVE ANY DECENCY IN YOU!!! CALL ME!!!!.....byes.....

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Jenny :~: 8:17 PM |

*sings* I'm all alone...ok...thats all i know of the song...so...yeah...anyways, im not alone, just felt like getting my e-sing on. Ok, this is something that was in the crazy post that i deleted but it was something i wanted people to hear...or..read..or...whatever, anyways, the point i made was that, Jake isn't some kind of jerk, or asshole or dictator man. The way i was talking about him earlier, some one would have guessed that he was, but they'd be seriously wrong. The thing is, when i get mad, or if something i dont like happens, I automatically try to tag the blame on someone else and make myself look like the victim. That's just the way i am, i regret it later, as you can see, but...you can't take me seriously when i'm mad because I act rashly and i say things i dont mean. It's a habit. I'm a much more stable person when i'm sad. A much more honest person as well. Much more sensible. But the point is, you all probably got the wrong idea about Jake. He's not a bad guy, trust me, i wouldn't have hung around with him for a year and a half now if that had been the case. Another thing, the only side of this that you've heard is MY side. Nobody knows anything about how Jake felt about this or what he was saying or how he was saying it, so nobody really knows where he's coming from. So, I'm just saying, don't assume anything unless you've heard all sides of the story. Talk to Sam! Sam knows Jake! So does Annie! They both know that he's not some kind of jerk or anything! Really he's not...and if i hear anyone that i know has never met him and doesnt know him at all saying that, there is going to be one very angry Jenny. i would do the yahoo angry face now but...this isnt yahoo...so...but, yeah, i'll look something like that...and Annie may have applied the claws to me by then so...be warned!...anyways, I'm done threatening my friends...sorry...i just dont like it when people assume things...especially when they're about people close to me...I'm not mad at anyone or anything, mostly mad at myself for giving people ideas like that...sorry. Anyways, so I'm trying to find Bohemian Rhapsody (cant spelll...neh..) on a ring tone because i really want it, except i dont where to get it...or if i can even get it off my computer and onto my phone...hmm...weeeeell, im done here. Happy Non-Birthday Owen (not 'till Friday!....never 'till Friday....) Laters!

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Maybe I should make a post insulting everyone i know...Then we'll see if you people use the comments...*glare*

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Monday, January 05, 2004

Hmm...i dont know what it is today, i'm just really moody...i've been being mean to Annie and Owen online...sorry...*sigh* im just a jerk today. There's this nifty little online game, you get to be a vampire and kill all your friends, but considering Annie and Owen already killed everyone...i have no one left to kill...so...bleh. School start on wednesday...christ that sucks....i really dont want to go...all well...Had another Buffy Fest today...Got into season 3. yay....ok, well, im just being...annoying so, im done. bye.

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1) Last dream: Something about a game show...

2) Last car ride: last night, coming back from JAke's

3) Last kiss: um...last night, when jake dropped me off

4) Last good cry: hmm...not since...at least before christmas break...yeah, sometime then...

5) Last Missing Library Book: umm...one of the Garfield books

6) Last movie seen: Peter Pan

7) Last Book Read: Cursed, it's a BtVS/AtS cross over book. Very good. Liked it lots.

8) Last curse word uttered: um...crap? does that count?

9) Last beverage drank: water

10) Last Food consumed: rice

11) Last Crush: er...dunno...plead the fifth?

12) Last Phone Call: Jake, last night

13) Last TV show watched: Buffy

14) Last Item Bought: Movie ticket, for Peter Pan. good movie, that.

15) Last time showered: last night....now my hair's all funky looking...

16) Last shoes worn: erm...Annie's condom pocket boots?...no, my little shoes.

17) Last CD played: ummm...Alanis Morrissette...

18) Last MP3 Downloaded: Prayer of St. Francis- Sarah MacLachlan

19) Last annoyance: Having to wake up at 8:30 this morning

20) Last disappointment: The fact that it was cold in my room this morning

21) Last soda drank: Dr. Pepper....

22) Last thing written: erm...um...dunno....

23) Last key used: house key

24) Last word spoken: Crap

25) Last trip to the bathroom: Erm...this morning to put my change into real people clothes...

26) Last sleep: 30 minutes ago

27) Last IM: Amyness

30) Last weird encounter: erm...um...i'll get back to you on that one...

31) Last Store Shopped at: Wal-Mart....?

32) Last ice cream eaten: Fudge Brownie something or other, really yummy.

33) Last time amused: Annie's cell phone...day before yesterday...

34) Last time wanting to die: hmm...jenny is not going to answer that...

35) Last time in love: Shhh. Quiet you.

36) Last time hugged: erm...Jake and Last night

37) Last time scolded: erm...some time about not putting away the dishes in the dish washer

38) Last time you wanted to kiss someone but didn't: *pleads the fifth*

39) Last chair sat in: uh...this one....

40) Last lipstick used: Lipstick?! ME?! You speak madness!

41) Last underwear worn: the ones with the unicorns...heehee, i'm such a dork!

43) Last shirt worn: tie dye shirt that used to be Amanda's

44) Last class attended: IPC

45) Last Final taken: IPC

46) Last time dancing: ha! once again. Dancing?! ME?! You speak madness!

47) Last poster looked at: my new Bengal Tiger one in my room that i bought at the San Deigo Zoo.

48) Last show attended: Does Peter Pan count as a show?...


Sunday, January 04, 2004

I spent last night over at Jamie's. I spent the night with Annie, whom is currently living with Jamie. We watched Rocky Horror Picture Show and it was soooo awesome, it was hilarious, i loved it. The we wandered around the Jamie-fer's house for a while. We had gone to Annie's house earlier and i ended up wearing her pajama pants and shirt and boots...Then there was this thing with an exercise tape with some crazy blond lady saying "Use your Power House" and "tweeze your buttock."...i did a few of the exercises with annie and mie mie, but i think the whole eating chips and cheese dip while doing them kinda defeated the purpose...mostly i was just cynical and made jokes about the lady. Later, We went and saw Peter Pan with a group of people. I finally met Anique, she's pretty cool. The movie was absolutely wonderful! Really funny. Very good. Liked it lots. Afterwards, I rode around with Owen, we dropped off Anique. Very cool person, that Anique is. Cool name too. Later we meet up with Annie and Phillip at Jamie's home and Annie and i were put in a ditch. Fun experience. Then there was plastic surgery and human pilllow, Owen for the rest of the night before he left us. The Phillip had left us some time earlier. Annie and I watched Dreamcatcher before we went to sleep...except i couldn't sleep because everytime i'd close my eyes, i'd get the mental picture of the evil alien worm thing with all the sharp pointy teeth biting a chunk out of my face...so i stayed up all night scanning the room for evil alien monsters...you'll find that i'm very easily scared by scary movies. But only the ones with monsters in them. Even if they're nice monsters. If they look mean, I get paranoid of them at night. Once I went to go see Signs and for the next week i slept with a metal baseball bat in my bed with me and a bottle of water on the table by my head (if you saw the movie, you'll know that the guy beat the mean alien with a baseball bat and then burned his face off with water) (the bat stayed in my room until a month afterwards). So I didn't get any sleep untill 7 in the morning when i figured it would be ok if i turned on the light, and it wouldnt wake up Annie, so i did that and then the cat snuggled up by me and we had a nice sleep until about 12. After i watched the movie, I actually went to go sleep on the couch with Annie because i was so afriad, but then she kicked me out when she needed more leg room. So thus went my night. The next day consisted of getting breakfast and then locking our selves out of the house...then a nice bit of bb gun shooting, then Annie and I locked Jay, Jamie and Owen out of the house, then unlocked the backdoor for them and ran and hid in the bathroom, seeing as they had guns...and we didnt. They didn't even bother looking for us, so annie stuck her head out the door to see if they were mad at us and then she ran back inside yelling "OWEN'S GOT A BIG SWORD!!!" and i said "Owen has a WHAT?!" and then i look and saw Owen standing there with a nice pretty samurai sword, then i ran back into the bathroom and yell "OWEN'S GOT A BIG SWORD!!!" and it was barrels of fun and eventually we came out of the bathroom and no body killed us. Then there was some other stuff, Owen climbed a tree like the crazy monkey child he is, I was proclaimed ruler of the leaves, I figure out that i am now completely weak...i couldnt even drag owen around with my leg...and owen's not that big of a person...i used to be able to drag jake around but now, i am weak. *cries*, then we went to go see Annie in her car (owen and i did) chased her around a bit, were almost locked out of the house. Played a bit of find-the-annie. Lounged around. Owen got molested. Laughs-a-plenty. We took online tests. Annie made brownies. The both of us are going to die on the 13th of this month, according to The Death Test...but that may have something to do with us saying we have the plague...and leprosy...and cancer...and head lice...and mafia connections....and poor penmanship...And then, I finally had to put some REAL pants on and go home. It was much fun. Annie's a fun person. And she makes damn good food. So here i am with 6 minutes left to blog, wondering if i annoy everyone i talk to...probably. Put screw my lack of self-esteem for these last 5 minutes, i'll mope about it later. *sigh* I dont want to go back to school...i dont want parents who need to know 5 days in advance if i'm having a friend come over...i dont want to ride the bus...i dont want a lot of things. Too bad life isnt fair. So bleh. Schade. *rapid change of subject* I GET MY BRACES OFF TOMORROW!!! WHOOPDEEFRICKINDOO!!!! I shall be soooo happy once i get this cheesegrater off of my teeth...well, thats all the time we have for today folks, see ya laters.


Thursday, January 01, 2004

Well, here i am...Just sitting around...all by my lonesome. Jake went home, his friend Danny (who moved to Houston a bit ago) came to visit and is staying the night over at his house. We had our Buffy Fest 2004!!!! but we didnt get to the season finale of s2...too bad. it's a really good episode. We'll watch it next time Jake comes over...which probably won't be too long from now...but won't be tomorrow, seeing as he's got Danny over and all, and i'm welcome to come over there but, meh, dont really want to. they can have their guy time thing...I'll just either find someone willing to spend the day with me or wander around my house all day, most likely watching Buffy. I'm supposed to be going to see Peter Pan with peoples tomorrow at 7:05...but there's something about a wedding and i dont know...meh. whatever...maybe i'll make popcorn...no...i don't eat popcorn unless it's a special kind or it's at the movies...even then, i only eat about 1/3 of the bag...I'm a drink person. I have to have a large Mr. Pibb to go with every movie. *sigh* what to do, what to do. Maybe I'll see how many times it takes of me whacking my head against a desk to knock myself unconsious...no, that is saved for school. Remember that from 8th grade, Annie? in all the notes? Annie says that she's gonna kidnap me tomorrow...yay, i have some one willing to spend the day with me! But i have to find someone thats not still in high school to give me a ride to where evr she'll be...Dum dee dum...*spins around in circles, gets dizzy, falls down, stares talking to the stars like some demented vampire girl* I've been watching entirely too much Buffy...actually, i ve been slacking off on my Buffy watching and am just now getting back to it. I'm tired..and my head hurts....i dont feel good...MOMMY!!!!...well, im done now. byes.

I took a Buffy quiz, i got both of these results:

Buffy Summers


You're always up for a challenge and you have tons of energy. You like to be around people if they aren't judgemental but spending time by yourself every now and then is an absolute must. You like to wear nice clothes if not always the most expensive stuff. Sometimes you might feel down but somehow you always managed to spring right back up. You live your life day by day, who knows what'll happen tomorrow?






Tara



You're a beautiful person, you're always there to help people and you always look for the best in people. You don't judge people once you first meet them and you always try to make the best out of a bad situation. You're always there for your friends. You're smart and intelligent but you're quiet and that sometimes prevents you from meeting people. You aren't superficial and are an extremely creative person.







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Jenny :~: 7:23 PM |

Heya everyone! Merry New Years!!! Erm....uhh....I'm hungry now...byes!

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